donutspanker

thanks tupac, thanks.

Well this is quite the interesting topic.
I think it's your life and you can do whatever you wish.
I think cheating is quite heartless and careless and it really hurts the other person.
And if the person believes that they won't get caught then I'm sure the possibility of it happening are quite higher.
It's like that with anything, if the minor knows they won't get caught if they drink, they're more likely to drink.
I think women are more commonly all about trust and values.
Men can too of course, but it's more commonly seen in women.

Marriage?
Not important in my eyes.
Personally, I don't need a ring on my finger or an expensive reception to prove my love towards someone.
But other people getting married is wonderful.
Just not something I see myself participating in.

<3

I miss you.
I miss how tall you were, and how safe I felt in your arms.
I miss your perfectly straight smile, and how wonderful I felt knowing I caused it.
I miss how sarcastic we were to, always able to cheer up the other.
I miss the way you always smelled good, even though you didn't wear cologne.
I miss your kisses, the taste of tobacco on your lips.
I miss your funny shoes you wore on occasion.
I miss your basement.
I miss you calling everyday, to play a new song you learned for me.

I would do anything in this world to taste the cigarettes upon your lips,  or hear your singing voice again.

I miss you.

I've come to the conclusion, that I am fantastic at hiding my feelings.
And I've lost the only people that I can actually show my true emotions to, you know?
I know this sounds completely emo, and pathetic, but I don't open up to people.
So I just am "happy" every single day.

And it blows, that's the only way to put it.

It simply sucks.
I'm pretty sick of loosing the people that are most important.

Without a drive or reason to wake up in the morning, really puts a damper on the day, believe me.
 

Oh my goodness.
I'm really glad we had one.
If we didn't, I would hate hate hate highschool with my pre-formed biased opinion on it.
I don't hate it anymore, I'm still not excited.
Still dreading it.
<3


Anyways, I'm a fan of myspace.
It dominates facebook, I'm sorry.
However there is this game on facebook called Restaurant City.
And it is fantastic.
I can't stop playing it.

That is all.
I'm going to go eat food, watch Intervention&Obsessed, and crash on my couch :)
Goodnight.

Hi Mac :)

Life is pretty much fantastic.
This is going to be lacking deepness and creativity.
Just a boring update, if you're into that sort of thing.

Well Evan.
Things with him are so fantastic.
I know it sounds corny and retarded, but it feels like I'm falling for him more and more everyday.
I don't know, he's really great.

I've made a few new friends which is exciting.

The freshman rally is on Tuesday, yikes.
I'm excited to maybe meet new people.
Not excited, cause it's highschool.

Next weekend is (enter my town name here) fest.
Where my zipper video was recorded.
And it's just so so so much fun, I'm so excited!

At the moment I am at my cousin's house eating a whole bag of chex mix, minus the pretzels :)
I'm not a pretzel fan.
I'll eat them, I just do not find them nearly as delicious as the other assorted munchies in this here bag.

<3

 

You're my hero, then I hate you more than anyone I've ever hated before. I love you, then I wish I never met you. I'm beginning to think you need pills because I've never cried so much before over anyone else. I love you, please shut up and listen to me. Stop thinking you're always right. Start trusting me. I look up to you...don't let me down.
I wish you'd say to me: Ally, I'm so proud of everything you've accomplished.


I'm done with you. I've said it before but I am done. I'm sick of being your last resort. I've been the best friend to you, then you just replace me with who ever will give you five minutes of attention. All you ever do is talk bad about your other BFF's, complain how done you are with them, then run off with them. I wonder what you say about me...You are one of the most materialistic, backstabbing, friends I've ever had. I'm done with the many acts you put on for people.
I wish you'd say to me: Things will go back to normal. I've changed.

 

You need to calm down. You freak out over every little thing and it frustrates the hell out of me. You're hypocritical and just scream and yell and get offended, and put words in my mouth over every. little. thing. i. do. and. say. I love you, I really do. I'm just sick of coming to you, hoping for advice, but all you ever do is tell him, so he will yell at me as well. Without you, I don't know where I'd be. I just wish you were the way you were before, even though I love you anyways.
I wish you would just listen.



I hate you. I hate you for what you have done to me. I hate myself for what you have done to me. You've changed me in so many negative ways that I can never take back. Someone I thought I was honestly in love with...I cannot believe you did what you did. I am lost for words.
I wish you'd say to me that you were sorry, and meant it.



What happened? You were my best friend, we'd ride bikes and draw chalk and play house everyday. I guess when we were seven in your room, and you told me that you were going to be a smoker when you were older while you sucked on a pretzel, pretending it was one, you weren't lying. Weed, sex with twenty year olds, sneaking out? You had so much ahead of you. I miss you.
I wish you'd say to me: I've quit, and I'm sober.


I worry every. single. day. that I am going to loose you. You never call back, you break all your promises, and you tend to make me feel worthless. But then at the same time you make me feel like I'm the most important person in the world. You're the only person that hasn't let me down 100%. I thought I completely lost you a couple times. And I pray you don't grow sick of me again. I am always one hundred percent honest with you, and I am completely surprised and thankful you're still here. Thank you. I really feel like I have nothing to offer you, and that makes me feel shitty, because you are wonderful. Please, don't let me down. Without you, I don't know where I would be...
I wish you'd say to me: I won't leave your side, no matter what, I'll always be here for you. I promise.



Just because everyone else didn't want to be your friend, didn't mean I hated you as well. I've been here for you, always have. Through all the bullshit. And still all you care about is being popular, and being friends with the coolest and the oldest. That's shallow. You've really dissapointed me. I'm sick of only being a friend in your eyes, when all your other one's have left you. I'm done.
I wish you'd say to me: I was wrong.



You're the only person I haven't lost faith in. &I can honestly say I wouldn't be here without you. All I can think to say is,
Thank you.
 

I am confident, that he is all I have left.

If you are a boyfriend.
And you have a girlfriend you care about.
SPEND

TIME

WITH

HER.
 

Seriously, when you hang out like once a week for a couple hours, it makes her feel like she means nothing to you.

 

If you only see them a little bit a week, they will question the relationship, because if you don't see them, what's the point?
It's not going to be any different if you're together or not.